Discussion of different types of Narcissist traits in us

This is a discussion that Rita/Nandini and myself had sometimes ago when we were doing reflection of the type of Narcissist traits that we have in us.

Narcissists in the Ashram House - Jeeya & Rita (Part 1)

In 2016 March, the Ashram project finally has the chance to realize after Sree Maa and Shri Ji has graciously agreed to accept the invitation.

With the Grace and Compassion of Sree Maa and Shri Ji we started the Ashram House project. The objective is for us to run a trial, test run and prepare ourselves for future Ashram. In the Ashram House, we were given an opportunity to learn, with guidance of Sree Maa, what a real Ashram is like because we have never stay in one before.

Vision of Ashram House

Is to have a place for learning and rejuvenate our soul. In the Ashram house there will be rooms for visitors to read holy scriptures, meditation rooms, temple where the Mandir will sit and a hall to listen to discourses of Sree Maa. There will be a room where visitors will sit and reflect on their weakness and negative sides and another room where healing will happen.

Such a Noble Vision of the |Ashram House and been misused by people like me to make the Ashram House into a war-zone for Narcissists' games of manipulation, lies, vengeance.

Sadly all these sacrifices that Sree Maa and Shri Ji made was disrespectfully disregards first by me and Rita, followed by me inviting Dallia/Iphigenie into the Ashram House and #Awakening with Joy/ #Joy Kuo who came to steal Kosmic Fusion intellectual properties.

Jeeya and Rita

When we first moved into the Ashram House, both Rita and myself were playing games, I had in mind to use Sree Maa to control and curb Rita, as in my colored lenses Rtia was trying her way to wiggle out of the Ashram House duties that supposedly we both had agreed to share and I was venting my frustration about her with my complains and sob stories to Sree Maa.

Instead of working together to come out with a routine how an Ashram House should operates, how an inventory should be like, how to effective work together as a team, I was trying to get every opportunity to bring Rita down. It was chaotic in the Ashram House. Never once I ever showed my gratitude by offering a proper meal for Sree Maa and Shri Ji. Both Rita and myself were waiting to be served by Sree Maa, because I did not want to learn anything at all in the first place.

I was making use of the Ashram project and Sree Maa to control Rita as we were constantly having cat fight, the sacred space of the Ashram House was polluted with our negative energies I did not take on this Ashram House project seriously, i was lying to the other innocent volunteers who support this Ashram House project how hard life was, when the truth was I was out working in the morning and came back in the evening waiting for Sree Maa to cook dinner for me.

I never make any real effort in running the Ashram House, it was all for show, for the fake identity of mine.

Ashram House is a good place for people like me who has no discipline at all, as I reflect it's the environment that plays a part in the change in people like me. Is it with the constant guidance of Sree Maa that I am able to look deeper into myself , get to know myself instead of be in denial, so that I can have a chance to heal.

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Encounter with 2 ex-Kosmic Fusion Volunteers - Awakening with Joy/ Joy Kuo (part 2)

The controller ( Mass characters assassination)

Narcissist always wanted to win and be in control, #Awakening with Joy/ #Joy Kuo already started to set her eyes on Kosmic Fusion in the 2013 for her ambition to create an empire of her own.

#Awakening with Joy/ #Joy Kuo first gained my trust and started to constantly filing my ears about what was happening in Sydney. #Awakening with Joy/ #Joy Kuo first do character assassination of Jwala whom she sees as a threat because #Awakening with Joy/ #Joy Kuo was very jealous of Jwala’s beauty and intellect.

#Awakening with Joy/ #Joy Kuo would tell me tales as well as gave projects about how aggressive Jwala was towards her, how Jwala was the trouble maker who disrupt the group’s dynamic and put the blame on Jwala because her intention was to get rid of Jwala.

Nobody was spared by #Awakening with Joy/ #Joy Kuo , she painted a picture of Mala for not contributing to the Kosmic Fusion work and make a big deal of how Mala was not computer savvy and used that as an excuse to get Mala out of Sydney. On the other hand,  #Awakening with Joy/ #Joy Kuo will prompt Mala to consider moving to UK, still "acting" like a concern fellow volunteer.

Yet #Awakening with Joy/ #Joy Kuo was constantly complaining about Mala disrespecting her and questioned her ideas to me and Clarito was also being bad mouth for his courage to standby his beliefs or ideas and being labelled as a difficult person to work with.

USE and DISCARD after the victims no longer have any value to her.

Clarito who has been personally picked by #Awakening with Joy/ #Joy Kuo as her “soul mate” was given the privilege to be her “business partner” and “personal assistant” to run her errands and be her support. 

I once witnessed how Clarito was being bossed around by #Awakening with Joy/ #Joy Kuo to slave for her, #Awakening with Joy/ #Joy Kuo  was demanding Clarito to be on standby so that she can have “access” to Clarito at all times, this Obsession and excessive control that #Awakening with Joy/ #Joy Kuo was displaying over Clarito was not pickup by Clarito, as Clarito has been groomed by #Awakening with Joy/ #Joy Kuo for 5 years into believing that she was doing this all for Kosmic Fusion. 

I still remember witnessing a couple of times when Clarito was not doing to her bidding, she started gave emotional blackmail, bringing Sree Maa and Shri Ji’s name into it, played with Clarito’s emotion by saying that he did not care for Sree Maa and Shri Ji, Kosmic Fusion. This is the tactics to create guilt in Clarito so to corner Clarito to bend to her unreasonable demands. She did not even ALLOW Clarito to rest after a long day work but to drive long distance just to meet her.

It was too late for Clarito to know what was happening to him and eventually became #Awakening with Joy/ #Joy Kuo's tool to do all the dirty work for her, such as giving opinions on her behalf while she gets to keep her “compassionate, understanding” fake image.

 

Please refer to the below link for more insight:

https://www.kosmicfusion.com/false-claims-vs-truth-reality-check-on-the-story-of-joy-kuo/

The crazy world

Narcissists are literally the “criminals” who walked away “crime free” as the damage that they have caused to their victims will never be accountable for … There are no measuring scales to determine the emotional & mental damage the narcissists have done to their targeted victims and in this current world there is no medicine to this illness of ours, that’ why most answer to narcissism is NO CONTACT RULE

Now looking back at what I have done, I was never grateful but spiteful towards Sree Maa Shri Ji for being my guiding light to come out from my murk. I knew that there is something dark inside me that needed to be looked at and seek Sree Maa Shri Ji’s help.

Sadly when Sree Maa Shri Ji trusted that I wanted to make the change and give me encouragement and guidance, I backed out and betrayed Sree Maa Shri Ji.

Just like how Dallia and Irene betrayed the Love and trust showered upon them by Sree Maa Shri Ji, they choose to run a smear campaign against Sree Maa Shri Ji as their Egos are hurt, all they desire is to seek revenge, retaliate and punish those who go against their wishes and to those whom they deem responsible for peeling off their fake masks. Dallia and Irene make all efforts to ensure that their evil plans succeed in creating damages to Sree Maa Shri Ji, Kosmic Fusion, when they make the media platforms as their tool to run a smear campaign.

Sree Maa Shri Ji are the ONLY victims of our games, we were using flying monkeys, gas lighting each other and innocent pulsars, exploiting Sree Maa Shri Ji’s kindness. Unfortunately both Dallia and Irene did not STOP and choose to behave in a despicable and shameless manner, they kept copies of Kosmic Fusion intellectual properties and claim as theirs (their agenda is to bring it to other places to start anew overseas) and exploit the teachings received from Sree Maa Shri Ji for their personal gain…

Both Dallia and Irene has fabricated stories to make themselves look like victims, slandering and tarnishing Sree Maa Shri Ji’s good name for their evil games of revenge. It was a one-sided story as they never shared and be honest about what they have done to me and others …. which is so wrong! Now I shall share my side of the stories of my ordeal, how terrible I was treated by them, how they degraded me and break my self-esteem and self-confidence to the extent I have a phobia for public speech, how they use projection, triangulation to get what they wanted, how they played with my mind … and the story continues….

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Below are the common traits of Narcissist which I can relate to as I have some shades of them in me,

• Grandiosity

• Power and Control

• False sense of entitlement

• Jealous and Envious

• Lack of Empathy

• Exploitative

• Superiority Complex, arrogance

• Needed excessive of Admiration

• Fixated on fantasies of power, success, etc 

The above traits which I will discuss further in the next few blogs about what narcissistic traits Dallia and Irene had displayed towards Sree Maa Shri Ji, Kosmic Fusion and volunteers of Kosmic Fusion.

Ashram House Project

In the spiritual journey for many, I believe that at one point in time there will be thoughts of wanting to go on a spiritual retreat, to be away from the material world and give the soul a break to start looking within so that healing can happen.

In Japan, there is “Henro”, a walking route that takes in 88 temples on Japan’s southern island, a journey that leads toward self-discovery and personal growth, there are also seekers who go for a spiritual Zen meditation experience to seek to enter a state of selflessness by shutting out worldly desires. 

Henro Route
Image by nippon.com

Image by japan-magazine.jnto.go.jp

In Korea, Thailand visitors stay in the monastery to experience the lifestyle of a monk and In India, there are Ashram for spiritual seekers to visit their Gurus and receive discourses as a group.

The Ashram concept is no alien to anyone, it has only been explained and terms in a different way but the basic concept is the same, for the soul to have a break from this material world and seek soul relief during this period of time.

In 2016, some volunteers were inspired by the great love, devotion that Sree Maa Shri Ji has displayed during the Taupo retreat. Like-minded volunteers wanted to do something so that more spiritual seekers can benefit from this communion between Sree Maa Shri Ji and Bhagwan Shreeji Maharaj.

So Rita and I volunteered to take the lead to start this project of an Ashram House so that we can learn and experience what an Ashram would be like if we want to build one in future. The idea is to have Sree Maa Shri Ji invited into the Ashram house so that the “setting” is more real and Sree Maa Shri Ji can share some guidance on how to run an Ashram.

We started the project in March 2016 when we found a house that was suitable to run the Ashram house project. We cordially invited Sree Maa Shri Ji to the Ashram house which Sree Maa Shri Ji graciously accepted.

Sree Maa Shri Ji has sacrificed personal time and space for us to come together and learn something in order for the Ashram project to be realized, the volunteers’ dream is to bring this Ashram project forward, build a place and space which is safe for anyone to come and seek shelter for spiritual upliftment through meditation, listening to discourses or reading scriptures. 

Sree Maa Shri Ji has graciously given us the tool, that is Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse, the platform which is the Ashram house to run. There is a Chinese saying, 师父领进门，修行在个人, you can lead a horse to the water but you can't make him drink, I am ashamed to say that few of us came with the wrong intention and were mucking around, I have contributed to the destruction of this sacred Ashram house project because when I saw how Dallia and Irene were displaying destructive acts and started to bully the volunteers in both subtle and outright manner, I sat on the fence and never red flag any of them as I chose self-protection over being a team player.

I have let Sree Maa Shri Ji down by acting small, playing games with the volunteers of Kosmic Fusion, being a flying monkey of Dallia, Irene and wasting precious time of Sree Maa Shri Ji for being a bystander because of self-preservation and not practising what is being taught by Sree Maa Shri Ji ... Honesty, Integrity and Authenticity

ALL KNOWING - See No Evil, Hear No Evil, Talk No Evil

Have you ever wonder how humans are created in the first place?  Or appreciating this amazing body that we have or wonder how such complex systems within this small physical body of ours operates on its own, how the veins are the plan in such delicate manner that it did not cross each other's path???... Questions that were raised by Sree Maa Shri Ji to make us reflect... After pondering ... I believe there is something greater out there which this peanut brain of mine will never comprehend… There must be someone out there who is all knowing …. the all-knowing, omnipresence, omnipotent …

Beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji 

Now looking back, Sree Maa Shri Ji has always been the ALL Knowing. In the FiT (Facilitator- in- training) program, I recalled Sree Maa Shri Ji shared a photo of “See no Evil, Hear no Evil, Speak no Evil” to all of us. I was unable to see the warning that Sree Maa Shri Ji was giving to me ... TO STOP these acts before I regret, which I choose to bypass.

In Sree Maa Shri Ji’s teachings, multiple times of readings are required in order to grasp the many different levels of teachings that Sree Maa Shri Ji shares … Forewarning always has been given to all of us, including the ones who have the potential to choose the wrong path, just like what Dallia and Irene had taken ...

 QUOTE from Sree Maa Shri Ji:
‘Hear no evil, see no evil, speak no evil!’ What you did not learn as children were ‘Think no evil!’

On the hindsight, the message given was on 2 levels …

To the VICTIMS - Practice Discernment 

1. DO NOT to be blinded by what the perpetrators have presented to them
2. DO NOT listen with face value without finding the truth or have an overview of what was being told
3. DO NOT fall into the trap of the perpetrators and spread information that has not been verified

Another red flag by Sree Maa Shri Ji
To Victims - Do not be recruited as Flying Monkeys
To Narcissists - Do not use innocent people as our Flying Monkeys 

To the PERPETRATORS - STOP before it's too late

1. DO NOT try to pull wool over the victims’ eyes
2. DO NOT try to fill the victims’ ears with toxic lies and rumours
3. DO NOT try to slander and run a smear campaign

In the teachings of Sree Maa Shri Ji, it is always about the righteous way of living, practise discernment and does not harm anyone due to personal agenda and while all these are being taught … Sree Maa Shri Ji have put themselves on the table and being the sacrificial lambs so that we can learn something valuable.

Reminder to us by Sree Maa Shri Ji 

First encounter ....

Being in my delusion world, my made believed reality. I was in my game of search for spiritual liberation and that I am ready for the Absolute TRUTH… On the hindsight, I see that I am lying to myself and beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji.

I made use of Sree Maa Shri Ji to get me a job in New Zealand with my sob stories, Sree Maa Shri Ji being kind as always recommended me to Rita, who is also a volunteer of Kosmic Fusion, instead of working for Rita and respecting Rita like a boss, I started to fight with her. I have breached the trust given by Sree Maa Shri Ji by behaving in an ungrateful manner.

As I was a co-dependent narcissist, I was triggered by Rita and all my narcissist traits vomited out like a fountain, I could not suppress myself in front of her, my mask fell apart, I was in competition with her, wanting to put her down as I cannot stand to see her better than me, I was unable to stand Rita’s façade as I was able to see through her games because I was doing the same as well. My narcissism came back full power… my evil, mean nasty self was at its peak.

Dallia, who was the master of manipulator, a full blown malignant narcissist, saw the crack and took the opportunity to create wedges between Rita and myself, she poisoned me with negative comments about Rita, such as pointing out to me that Rita has trust issues with her when she was working in her shop (also with recommendation by Sree Maa Shri Ji), that Rita was wearing revealing clothes to get guys attention … all these while to hide the fact that she wanted to get even with both me and Rita.

Why would anyone want to do that? Being a Malignant narcissist, she cannot see anyone having something that she cannot have due to excessive jealousy and envy. Dallia needed to punish Rita for owning a business, house, car, wearing expensive clothes and carrying branded bags when she has to struggle to live within her means. Dallia needed to punish me for taking the job/position that she was eyeing in Rita's shop for so long, which she sees as her entitlement 

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This is just the beginning of me being played by the narcissists around me…. the hint which is given by Sree Maa Shri Ji that I choose to bypass ..... QUOTE:  “ when you are playing others, others are playing you”

Learn ... Un-Learn ... Re-Learn

In my journey of self-discovery... I am given the platform to Learn, Un-Learn and Re-Learn about my self, Self, SELF ...My beloved Guru/Mentor Sree Maa Shri Ji are always there to give support, encouragement in every little step I take so that I have the strength to work on myself... I am so grateful and thankful to my Guru/Mentor Sree Maa Shri Ji for the unconditional LOVE and Grace for embracing me for who I am.

Sree Maa Shri Ji has always maintained full transparency to the public that Sree Maa Shri Ji's teaching is about the Absolute TRUTH ... which is very difficult for general public to digest as the antidote is to summon our courage to get ugly with our EGO self and the seekers who are lost and have been searching for an answer to freed themselves from their own melodramas, will be shared with the Absolute TRUTH ... no sugar coating. 

Not everyone wants to accept the ABSOLUTE TRUTH

This is the USP of Sree Maa Shri Ji's teachings which I love the most.

Since day 1, I have always been shared about the importance of Honesty, Integrity and Authenticity in Sree Maa Shri Ji's teachings, NEVER once I had been misled into anything I am not ready.

I am sick and tired of my old self and for ONCE, wanted to make change for the betterment of my soul. Life cannot be just about “EAT...SLEEP and DEATH” …. there must be something more … as I continue my journey of searching ...most answers I have gotten from other spiritual groups were unable to give a satisfactory answer to "What's beyond death" … the answers were so vague and I became more lost as I was feeling more confused ... until I found Sree Maa Shri Ji. I am able to resonate with what Sree Maa Shri Ji is teaching, deep down I was screaming to myself "This is the one! Never let it go!" since then I became a volunteer for Kosmic Fusion. I can NEVER say that I do not know what I have signed up for because this is what I am looking for ... the Absolute TRUTH!

This is the what happens to the world right now ...

Life changing moment

I was happily married to a nice guy for 5 years, I was being pampered and showered with Love and care. I started to show my true self to him, being demanding, unreasonable, throwing tantrums, giving him silent treatment or doing my sudden “disappearance” show to make him worried. Played with his mind, giving him additional stress on a daily basis.

Finally, he was unable to cope with my games and filed for a divorce. He maintained “NO CONTACT” rule because he sees that Narcissistic traits in me. He left a comment to me that “ I felt cheated into this marriage as you are not the same person I fell in love with” So true it is …. I was wearing the mask of a 2 faced liar … that Miss goodies shoes are NEVER me, it’s just a fake Identity that I used. To expose a Narcissist, spend time with us as we can NEVER keep our mask for 24 hours a day.

NO Contact Rule

Being a co-dependent narcissist, my world fell apart when my supplies left me. I went into hibernation, depression and cut myself off from people around me. This is the time I went crazy and nearly mental because of my self-inflicted pain and suffering as I was in total denial. I went on a spiritual spree to seek a remedy for this emptiness that I was feeling inside, I desperately wanted to heal myself… that’s where I found Sree Maa Shri Ji in the exhibition. I always remember the first day I met  Sree Maa Shri Ji, it was their warmth and welcoming vibes that attracted me to their booth.

I first went for tarot readings, aura soma reading sessions with Sree Maa Shri Ji as I wanted to find out more about what went wrong in my marriage due to the need to be in control. I wanted to make changes in my life with the easy way out. As usual, trying to find fault with anything except myself.

All these while, I was abusing  Sree Maa Shri Ji’s kindness and went to the apartment,  join Sree Maa Shri Ji for dinner, get a free consultation, healing sessions on my off days. My twisted mind justifying my act by saying  Sree Maa Shri Ji are being so kind but never once reflected that I was imposing myself on Sree Maa Shri Ji's personal time and space, taking full advantage of Sree Maa Shri Ji as I was playing the victim of my failed marriage.

Sree Maa Shri Ji knew that I was in financial difficulty and offered me many of the free NEW clothing, accessories so that I can start to build my self-confidence in order to move on with my life.